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Holy Bad Day

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Today, has been a hard day.

Think, “if I wasn’t in a public place right now someone would be really hurt” kind of a day. Fo realz.

Half serious.

Thank goodness I was in public.

It has been some time since I have had one of these. My blood pressure is still boiling. I can understand how some Mom’s turn into secret alcoholics. I am not saying that I would, but it is days like today that I can understand how some women get there. Phew.

Three is one of my favorite ages, but also at the same time one of the HARDEST ages. In my opinion.  How is it possible that someone can be SO, so sweet and loving and funny and then the next minute turn into [Linda Blair and Hulk had a baby]?!

It’s nap time now. Part of me wants to fall asleep to rejuvenate for the second half of the day, part of me wants to stay awake and do ABSOLUTLEY NOTHING so that I can have real quiet time and a small (small) part of me wants to do some chores so that it looks like I was productive today when important people come home. Hopefully they come home by themselves because if they bring a friend I will have to have done more chores. Decisions, decisions. ZZZZZZZZZZ…….

Thanks for letting me vent.

And, a word of truth to all of those sharing in my bad day…

1 Thessalonians 5:18: “ give thanks in all circumstances…”

All circumstances? Really? Ok. Well, thank you Lord that I did not kill my Son in anger. Thank you that I have a son and that I am blessed enough to have a bad day because of my blessed children. Thank you that this situation has caused me to come to you when I may not have if I was having an easy day. Thank you for nap time. Thank you promising to carry me through bad days (psalm 50:15, 1peter5:7, nahum1:7…). It would have been better for me if I wasn’t having a bad day, if I am being honest, but for some reason you want to teach me something through this, so… forgive me for my anger, forgive me for being tempted to turn to a glass of wine for comfort (and chocolate), forgive me for not being more patient with my children, help me to have patience, to have wisdom and, well, help me to be overflowing with every single fruit of the spirit. Amen.

Cheers!

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A Dream Come True

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We went to Disney World.

It was a dream come true.

I have never been, nor did I think I would ever actually go.

It was amazing. Better than I could have imagined.

There is a lot I could say and SO many pictures I could post (239 to be exact) but for the sake of my readers, I tried to narrow down my thoughts and my picture collection to just a few of my favorites.

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I would not go

back during a Fall/Winter Holiday. Possibly between Thanksgiving and Christmas, but not in the month of November.

Definitely get a Hopper. Worth every penny.

I cried several times. I was overwhelmed with joy. It’s normal I tell you! <wink>

I wanted to take pictures of all the kids crying at “The Happiest Place on Earth”. Ironic.

I’m pretty sure we WILL NOT drive, ever again.

Now I get it, I can’t wait to go back!

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More About Practically Loving Your Husband

Hello World.

It’s me. I’m here.

What a whirlwind of a Summer. My life, I mean really. Lots of exciting things. And of course there is always some gloom thrown in there too. And tans.  And tears. And baby sitters needed please!

Moving on.

On my way to Church yesterday I was daydreaming. I had a revelation that I wanted to write about. One reason because my thoughts are more clear to me when I write them out and two, I have found that most of the time I am not the only person with these thoughts and that most people usually enjoy when I write about such things.

Okay, picture this. <Yes, I’m asking you to daydream with me for a minute…>

You are out somewhere and one of your girlfriends walk up to you. Well doesn’t she look cute and stylish?!

“Awe! I love your shoes, are they new?” 

(We all notice when our friends have new clothes, don’t we?)

“Yes, they are, I got them last week! I just had to have them.”

 “Well isn’t that nice. New shoes. I need new shoes.”

You shoot a look over towards your husband and say “Wish I could afford new shoes”. Then you look back at your friend and continue on your normal conversation.

And there it is.

Did you see it? Did you see what I did there? I just blamed my Husband for not having a nice new pair of shoes. That look, and comment, just said everything.

{I don’t have new shoes like my friend here because YOU wont let me get them. YOU don’t make enough money so I can’t look cute like my good looking friend here. YOU are not a good enough provider for our Family therefore I have to suffer.}

Ouch. That hurt a little bit when I thought about it. Is that really what is in my heart when I have a response like that? Yes, I believe so.

I know my situation may be a little different from yours. Together, we made a choice that I would be a Stay-at-Home Mother and with that obviously comes sacrifices (like shoes) but I know I still do this. I know I sometimes unintentionally put the burden on my Husband to not only provide for our needs, but ALL of my wants. And blame him when it doesn’t happen.

When I am not satisfied and I am being ungrateful (or blaming him for what I “don’t” have), I am telling him he is not doing a good enough job. 

That is so far from the truth. He is amazing. He works so hard for us. I may not get new shoes every season, or year, but I am clothed and we do take vacations and I  get to go on a date every once in a while and I pretty much get Chipotle every time I want it.   

I’m sorry Ry-Ry for being ungrateful. I’m sorry for not trusting God with my needs and wants and putting all of the burden and responsibility on you.

So, before you give him “that look”  or make a “certain comment” when your BFF buys a nice new house or your neighbor pulls up in that shiny new car… just think about what you might really be saying to your Husband, and don’t say it.

 

=)

 

(Disclaimer- I am not judging anyone else here, I am just sharing my personal feelings. I also know that it is NOT wrong to desire new shoes or a new outfit, or anything you may be desiring. I am just commenting on my response to my Husband in situations such as the one I have experienced.)

 

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Do we always like our kids?

photoI was talking with a friend of mine who is having a hard time parenting her 18 month old son. She says to me: “I feel like such a bad Mom; I do not always like my Son. He is very difficult to deal with and is always yelling and screaming. When I get on Facebook, everyone loves being a Mother and loves having children- I just do not feel that way”.

Well, she is not alone, is she ladies? I know that I am not out of line in saying that this is a VERY common feeling! I have been there these past few weeks myself. Parenting is HARD! Being a Mom is hard. No doubt about it. Sure, there are seasons of parenting that are easier than others, but as a whole, this is the hardest job in town.

I know it is super easy to get caught up in the “I am a terrible Mom” mindset. Especially when we are comparing ourselves to the “Highlight Reel” of “Super Mom’s” on Facebook and Instagram. Be assured, there is no such thing. Often times, the pictures I post on social media are the only joyful moments of the day! The rest of the time when I am not posting pictures, I am cleaning  dried up food off of the walls and disciplining a little boy who can’t seem to grasp the idea that hitting his Sister with a bat is a bad thing.

To the Mom who is chasing after aggressive and energetic boys, or arguing with a strong-willed daughter, or a Mom who has a new baby who won’t stop crying and never sleeps… You are normal. This is normal. We are in this together. We WILL get through it! We will. It gets better.

Take a deep breath. It will all be okay. It will. We will.

I love my kids. Do I always like my kids? Sometimes, no. But I do want to be the best Mother I can be and love these little gremlins even when I feel they are not worthy of being loved for the moment.

Are you with me?

We are Mom’s! We have the greatest most important job in the world. It is not always easy. We are never going to be perfect. BUT, it is SO worth it.

We can’t do it alone so go call someone. Pray. Go on a date. Drop that kid off at Grandma’s!  Take a nap. Put on a darn movie (Do it I won’t think any less of you).

 

And that, is my trying to encourage the weary Mom. Do you feel encouraged? <wink>

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“For I can do everything through Christ, who gives me strength.” Philippians 4:13

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Jehovah Jireh

Remember when I mentioned that one of the things I would like to “focus” on this year is contentment? Well, thankfulness and gratefulness come hand in hand with contentment. If I am being discontent, I am also being ungrateful and not thankful for what I have. It is a very sobering thought to label myself as “ungrateful”. But, Of course, that is what I am each and every time I am being discontent in something.

So, the point.

Lets just say that the first three days of the New Year have been nothing short of… well… difficult? Challenging?  I wouldn’t say I have been anxious through these situations because I truly believe that God will provide for me/us… like he does each and every day through every circumstance. BUT, I can’t help but chuckle and think: “Lord, what are you doing here?!”.

We spent the night in the ER on NYE. We are uninsured.

New Years Day, We had to have Ryan’s work truck towed to the shop because it will not start. Again.

Today, All of siding is falling off of our house because of the snow and the wind.

Thankful? I should be thankful for these things?

I am not sure how we are going to cover all of these expenses. I don’t know how I can deal with my pride and “fear of man” (a churchy phrase for “what people think of me”) when our house looks crappy because of the missing siding. I don’t know what I will do if something else happens. Please Lord, nothing else!

BUT-

I am thankful. I am thankful that you are my provider. I am not happy that these things are happening, but I am thankful, grateful, that you are taking care of them. Taking care of us. You will take care of these things as you have taken care of everything else.

“…for your Father knows what you need before you ask him.” Matthew 6:8

“Even to your old age and gray hairs
I am he, I am he who will sustain you.
I have made you and I will carry you;
I will sustain you and I will rescue you.” Isaiah 46:4

“The Lord is my strength and my shield; my heart trusts in him, and he helps me…” Psalm 28 7

I am not telling everyone this for pity or charity.  I know that some of you may be experiencing similar situations and maybe, the faith that God has given me in Him, the comfort and the peace, the truth, may also serve you. Help you when you feel overwhelmed and anxious with expenses or burdens.

Take a moment to listen and meditate on the song below. It is very beautiful. It will serve your soul.

 

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One Word (or two) 2014

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New Years Resolution? Nah. No thanks.

But, what about a New Year focus?

I came across something quite interesting recently that has given me a different perspective.

I subscribe to a blog called Praise and Coffee, I received an email yesterday entitled “One Word- 2014” (click here to read the whole article). Basically you choose “one word” to focus on this year. Instead of trying to change, or add or do… you pick a focus. I like that. Something positive to focus on, instead of guilt and disappointment when a resolution has not been made or fulfilled.

This year, as I have been pondering which word God wants me to focus on (He knows me better and knows which areas I am lacking focus better than I do). I have been hearing and seeing the word “faithful” a lot. Now, honestly, I have no idea what this means. I do know that it has been showing up in my life for a reason.  I don’t know exactly which area or facet of “faithful” I am to focus on but I am going to keep it and pray about what this means or looks like in my life.

“A faithful person will be richly blessed, but one eager to get rich will not go unpunished.” Proverb 28:20

Two words?

There is something else that I would really like to try to focus on because I have noticed that I have been really struggling with it lately (or, my whole life?). This year, I am really really going to focus on growing in “contentment“. It is simple…

“Keep your lives free from the love of money and be content with what you have.” Hebrews 13:5

Ugh. Why is this so hard?! But, hopefully, as I dig into what it means and looks like to be content, God will help me to put on an attitude of contentment and in 2014, I can reflect back at the year and see all of the ways in which I have grown in this area. That, will be awesome. *Yes, I love run on sentences!*

So, What is one word that you are going to focus on this year??

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The Search For Pleasure

I was born in 1985 to young parents who didn’t have the smallest clue as to how to raise a child. They did the best they could with what they had and what they knew. What I am about to share is not to reflect poorly on them but to display God’s goodness and grace in my life.

I would say that I would not sum up my youth as a happy one. There were lots of things missing and lots of hurt. Sure, there were good times and good memories but I am sure that most of us, or for a lot of us, the unfortunate things stand out most.

This post was inspired by the sermon we heard at church yesterday morning called The Pleasure Experiment based on Ecclesiastes 2:1-11. You can listen to that sermon here.  In a nut shell, the sermon was about how we seek pleasure of all kinds to satisfy the “emptiness” inside of us. I am sure you can relate that those moments of satisfaction, only lead to momentary happiness. We are left still feeling empty, unsatisfied and unfulfilled. That is, until we find the true satisfaction and fulfilment in Christ Jesus.

At age 8, I tried my first cigarette.

At age 9, I had my first sip of alcohol.

At age 12, I discovered the Hair Straightener. God’s gift to girls with curly hair. Hopefully this will help to defuse some of the bullying and ridicule I suffered throughout my life based on my appearance.

At age 13, I got my first job. I spent all of my money to dress in the latest fashions so that one day, hopefully I will be accepted and fit in. I will be popular.

At age 13, I became intoxicated for the first time and I also smoked Pot for the first time.

At age 14, I began to indulge in all of these activities on a regular basis well into my college years. I was becoming popular.

At age 16, I gave my “flower” to someone I barely even knew.

At age 17, Pot wasn’t enough and I started to dabble in the world of hallucinogens. I became obsessed with my recent weight loss and loved the attention I was receiving from others based on my new body. Wow, it feels good to finally feel pretty.

At age 18, I continued in my drug, lust, sex and idolatrous lifestyle. I began to live a double life and hurt many of the people I cared about. I could not wait to leave my home and move onto better things. Until then, I would spend every night with my boyfriend. I lost my first job and started to rack up credit card bills to support my lifestyle until I found another job to pay for it.

“I denied myself nothing my eyes desired; I refused my heart no pleasure. My heart took delight in all my work, and this was the reward for all my labor. Yet when I surveyed all that my hands had done and what I had toiled to achieve, everything was meaningless, a chasing after the wind; nothing was gained under the sun.” Ecclesiastes 2:10-11

At age 19, God answered the many tear filled prayers I prayed throughout my life. He brought me to himself through amazing Godly people who had a heart for the lost. I became a member of God’s family in the spring of 2004 (This may sound cultish to those of you reading who are familiar with church lingo so in short, this just means that I became a Christian). I have never felt truly satisfied or indescribably joyful then the moment that I accepted Jesus to be my Lord and savior.

Yes, I am still a human (or “sinner” for more Church lingo) and often look to the world and the “things” in the world to satisfy my lusts and desires. But I know that it is only Jesus Christ who can fully satisfy and bring me true pleasure in my life. Psalm 16:11 says:

“You have made known to me the path of life; you will fill me with joy in your presence, with eternal pleasures at your right hand.”

Thank you Jesus. I can stop searching and trying to fill myself with every worldly desire to try to make my life “happy” and meaningful. I know that it is not the new living room sofa, the new home with that open floor plan I have always wanted, it is not those super cute Frye Riding Boots that would look awesome with my new jeans. No, none of those things will satisfy me the way that you can and do. You are more than enough.

Please Lord, help me to remember these truths on a daily basis when I am tempted to be discontent with where I am and what I have. You have given me everything I need in your son Jesus. Amen.

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